Back on track

My back pain almost faded into oblivion. Still some joint stiffness in the mornings but it`s nothing.
I`m impatiently waiting for the decision regarding my eventual spine surgery. I have an appointment by a neurosurgeon at 21st December. I think he will say - no. On the one hand I would be glad, because the perspective of someone rummaging in my spine terrifies me a little. On the other hand, living from one "accident" to another and stuffing myself with stronger and stronger painkillers dosn`t sound as an nice alternative. The last painkillers I had where narcotic like and I had auditory hallucinations. My neurologist warned me that I might feel "bit high" after them but this was just creepy. Whispering behind my back or someone calling my name from the other room or from downstairs ... 
Anyway, right now I`m pain and hallucination free again ^__^